Time to Get Relax aka I Give Up..

I give up.

I live in despair, my business doesn’t flow so well. Too much spending in the end.. and that’s it! I giving up my stubbornness to believe that I will be success someday. In case I’m not too stupid to realize how stupid I am. The fact don’t work so well with my faith.. My stupid algorithm.. My limited skill.. My oh sh*t!

I just hate for being myself… Gosh.. I need vacation! I need real life which I don’t feel like I’m living anymore.. I just looked like zombie who everyday if I’m not doing my main job in that stupid restaurant.. I will always be sitting in front of computer working on my project which is profitable (a little bit) but not enough to cover my spending on making the money flow..

This is stupid.. I feel like moron who never think before act.. Maybe yeah I’m a moron.. I did a mistake, again.. now I gotta stop.. It’s time to get relax dude.. WTF am I doing?! I need to have some fun..

The fact that I only see a little success.. But not covering the spending is what I need to approach now.. I feel like I don’t have any logic now..

I don’t know if I’m only being so nice with my freelancers which are the writers for my project..

You gotta believe me, I gave them monthly earnings with their job..  While I’m struggling here like crazy.. thinking about will I have some money tomorrow?

I did mistake again.. which if I write it down here.. you won’t even understand it.. It’s about on how clueless I am on this matter..

I need to restructurized my business plan.. or even my life plan..

I need to feel alive again.. and I’m done..

Thanksgiving

I like this word.. Thanks and Giving..

Created for all mankind.. For a single day.. Sharing happines..

I remember like lebaran when I was youth..

But lebaran are not happy anymore.. especially in here.. lol..

Fix You by Coldplay

When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tribute to Beyonce

From the most pretty of the prettiest woman on earth is Beyonce Knowles.

No one can beat her! She’s beautiful, she can sing awesome, she dance unbelievable and she’s great!

I wonder if in this world there’s one more girl like her.. Find me one will ya..

What The Flu!

Darn.. I got a cold..

This is the most contagious disease on earth..

Whole restaurant got this.. Including me..

I wonder why do I always got flu every winter come..

What a Mistake Will Do for YoU..

It’s really hard to admit.. let’s say that you’ve made mistake..

I did.. as I’m the most stubborn people on earth..

I made a mistake which would cost me a lot..

But what can I get from them.. That I’ve got learning experience which was so expensive!

Now I want to start again from the scratch..  Based on my learning experience.. God please give me the way will Ya..

Cash Management

It really hard for me to manage my money.. once they’re in.. they will be out soon.. I even got bank overdraft yesterday..

So the conclusion is.. I need to have a really tight money management..

Eventhough I’ve got salary like let’s say $4000 if I purchase something more than $3900 then I will get nothing..

But FYI, I spend almost all of my money to the business.. I rarely go out to have fun.. Just stays in front of the computer..

But why?!